Thursday, November 08, 2007

Lost........(personal)

As usual, today was a busy day in office, due to the holiday season approaching its been very hectic....i was coordinating with different people on multiple things.....and then i received this phone call from India, it was from my best friend......as the phone number of my friend's home landline displayed on my cell phone, the expression on my face changed dramatically, I had an idea on what news this call can bring......and yeah my fear turned right.....
i picked the phone, but could not even speak - "hello" ....i wanted her to speak something first and she did spoke first......
she just spoke those 3 lines about 3 hours ago and all those lines are going on in my mind till now......i m even unable to concentrate on my work today....there's lots of work which requires my attention but i am unable to concentrate.....i need to put everything out and there is no one here with whom i can speak on this......so i decided to write out on my blog...

my best friend's mom has been suffering from cancer for almost an year now and recently about 3 weeks back her health started getting down......
I have known her mom ( my aunt) for very long now......and i share a very special bond with aunt......always in my good/bad times she had always been there, always giving me her blessings....she is one person i know who never did anything wrong to anyone in her life and takes care of every person who she comes in contact with......
3 weeks back my friend had to rush to India as aunt's health started degrading......3 days back was aunt's birthday and i spoke to her....but she could barely speak, still she asked about my work and how was i doing and wished me luck for my apps......but i knew something wrong is gonna happen in days to come.....so when today that number splashed on my phone, i was scared.....

today my friend just told me aunt is now in hospital in India and doctors have said that there is no hope.....its just a matter of time now..
I am in US and will not be able to go back to see her for the last time......but i want to speak to her for the last time and tell her that how much i love her.....even though we are not directly related but we have shared a special bond which is perhaps as strong as the bond between a mother and a child.....

I just hanged up the phone after i heard this, could not speak anything......this reminds me today that life is really short and you never know what's gonna happen tomorrow..you never know whether you will know the same person tomorrow or not....so its better to tell all the people you love about how much you love them!! we may not get the same opportunity again!!

I hope i get a phone call from her and i am able to speak to her once......but i know, the next time when the same number splashes on my phone, i am going to be even more scared...





Update: I lost one of the most beautiful persons i have known in my life almost a week back and i didnt get a chance to speak to her. I have been thinking about her ever since unable to do anything else. I am not even speaking much with people around me here. But i know she is there sitting right besides God, watching upon us.....thus, now i will not cry but will pray that good almighty God keeps her with all his love. I am sure God will keep her in his best comforts. I know i can speak to her anytime, i just need to close my eyes for that and she will be listening...as aunty once said to me: "You will always be there in my heart" and i know she will always be there in mine. Amen

7 comments:

Bokaa said...

Hi Achilles,

God give you strength. Hang on buddy.

Cheers

Anonymous said...

Achilles,

Hope there is an angel to heal u'r aunt.

May strength be with you during the toughest moments of life.

-SK

p.s: I am fellow applicant. I read u'r blog.

Mike said...

Achilles, sorry to hear the news. Hope things work out and hang in there.

bsch00l4sp!r4nt said...

Achilles,

I am sorry to hear about your aunt. I can relate to what you must be going through - during the last week of October, my mother had to be hospitalized, and I am grateful that she is doing better now. I am in the US Myself,and I was literally "on standby" to head back o India during this time. I was not in a mod to say or do anything...

I hope you will be able to get through this. I wish you will get a chance to talk to your aunt!

Achilles said...

Thanks people for all the support...its really been a pleasure to be part of such a nice and supportive community..

Ameya said...

Hey Achilles,
Hope you received a call with some good news.
My wishes with you and prayers for your aunt.

~a

MBAandBeyond said...

Hey Achilles,

Sorry to hear this. Hope and pray that things get better.